Chrissy Teigen says she found herself after losing baby Jack—’it really saved me’

Chrissy Teigen is reflecting on how the loss of her son Jack has changed her life.

In a new interview on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, Teigen described the experience as “transformative.”

“It was a really transformative thing for me and in a way, it really saved me,” she said, “because I don’t think that I would’ve discovered therapy and then sobriety and this path of feeling good about myself and feeling like a new person.”

“You really gain this incredible amount of empathy,” she added. “And I really, somehow, think I’m a better person now.”

In late September, Teigen and husband John Legend announced the loss of their son Jack at 20 weeks gestation. At the time, Teigen also shared a series of black-and-white photos from that traumatic day.

“Looking at those pictures now, it seems like so long ago,” she told Ellen. “And also, of course, everything was such a blur. Even thinking back to it now, I am still in therapy about it and I’m still coming to terms with it.”

Teigen also shared that she’s still working through how to process constant reminders of their loss.

“I have maternity clothes, and there are things that I bought for my eighth month and my ninth month,” she said. “So, it’s just hard because he would’ve been born this week, so you look at those things and you have these constant reminders.”

“You really don’t know the meaning of the word ‘unimaginable’ until something like that happens to you,” she reflected.

“And then afterwards, there’s such a spiral of things you could’ve done differently, and you start to get really tough on yourself,” Teigen said. “But what you learn through it about yourself is such a wild, incredible thing, and this week, we’re thinking about [Jack] especially.”

Teigen also shared how their family is keeping Jack’s memory alive.

“It’s been so beautiful to see my kids, the way they talk about him,” Teigen said. “We’ll be going to the beach or something and they’ll say, ‘Is baby Jack with us right now? Do you think he’s up in the clouds?’ It’s just so beautiful and so sweet.”

We’re grateful for how Teigen and Legend have shared their love and loss of baby Jack.

It matters.

Every time they talk about their heartbreak and their healing, they use their platform to let others who have experienced the same tragedy know that they’re not alone.

It’s powerful and it’s important.

We’re grateful for their candor and hope that brighter days are ahead for their entire family.