After my son was born, all I wanted was sleep. But I was scared of closing my eyes for fear of something happening to him during that time. I couldn’t shut my mind off from all the irrational thoughts running through it.
I'm perpetually exhausted and, in fact, am used to living in that state now. Even
still, the human mind is quite an amazing thing, and I am constantly teetering on the edge of
hope that she'll eventually be a good sleeper.
One of the most important lessons I have learned as a mother is that our children
do not need us to be perfect. They need us to love them and to love ourselves.
I know you are wondering how you got here, how time moved this quickly, how the
child you thought would stay little forever is ready to walk away from you for the first time. It's
okay to hold on as long as you can. It's okay to reminisce even though you still have so many
wonderful years to go.
