Jennifer Lawrence opens up about experiencing miscarriages and D&C in new interview

In a wide-ranging new interview with Vogue, Jennifer Lawrence opens up about her newfound perspectives as a mother and how her life is forever changed. During the interview, she passionately discusses the effects of Roe v. Wade on women and mothers and bravely shares that she has experienced two miscarriages.

Throughout her pregnancy, Lawrence says she often thought about the fickle landscape of women’s rights in the U.S., and how the recent U.S. Supreme court ruling forced her to consider her own bodily autonomy when it comes to her reproductive system.

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She says she first became pregnant in her early twenties, and had planned on getting an abortion. But before she could, “I had a miscarriage alone in Montreal.”

While filming “Don’t Look Up” a few years ago, Jennifer Lawrence became pregnant again—this time she was ready to become a mother alongside her husband, art gallerist Cooke Maroney. Unfortunately, she suffered another miscarriage and had to undergo a D&C to surgically remove tissue from her uterus afterward. Because of her experience, Lawrence says she finds it incredibly difficult to imagine young girls and women with limited options who will now have to have a baby in many states.

“I remember a million times thinking about it while I was pregnant,” she tells Vogue. “Thinking about the things that were happening to my body. And I had a great pregnancy. I had a very fortunate pregnancy. But every single second of my life was different. And it would occur to me sometimes: What if I was forced to do this?”

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Lawrence, who was raised by conservative parents in a conservative family in Kentucky, admits motherhood has made her feel even more passionately about politics—and that her own politics differ drastically from those of her family, particularly when it comes to reproductive rights and gun control. Like with many families across the country, the 2016 election began a rift within her own. She tells the magazine that she’s had to work hard during the last few years to “forgive my dad and my family” for their views and others who express political apathy.

“I’ve tried to get over it and I really can’t. I can’t. I’m sorry I’m just unleashing, but I can’t f— with people who aren’t political anymore,” she says. “You live in the United States of America. You have to be political. It’s too dire. Politics are killing people.”

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In a lighter part of the interview, she reveals for the first time that she gave birth to a baby boy back in February, and his name is Cy. And, like all of us when we become parents for the first time, a new version of herself was born when her son was.

“The morning after I gave birth, I felt like my whole life had started over. Like, Now is day one of my life. I just stared. I was just so in love,” she explains. “I also fell in love with all babies everywhere. Newborns are just so amazing. They’re these pink, swollen, fragile little survivors. Now I love all babies. Now I hear a baby crying in a restaurant and I’m like, ‘Awwww, preciousssss.‘”

She also perfectly nails the powerful emotions and anxieties we’re all immediately hit with once our children are outside of our bodies, and she puts it in the most Jennifer Lawrence-y way (which is why everyone loves her).

“My heart has stretched to a capacity that I didn’t know about,” she says. “I include my husband in that. And then they’re both just, like, out there—walking around, crossing streets. He’s gonna drive one day. He’s gonna be a stupid teenager and be behind the wheel of a car. And I’m just gonna be like, Good night! You know? Like, who sleeps?”