Allison Banfield

Motherly Stories

To my child: My greatest accomplishment will always be you

No matter what, nothing I do in life will ever be as great as being your mom.

Parenting

I’m defined by motherhood right now, and that’s okay

I spent many years longing to be here at this moment. To have my family. To be my children's mama.

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